Everybody is entitled to their silence...there's always a reason..even if ever unknown

Untill the darkness shows
This pain will never go
Its an emptiness that's carried within
Unable to cross that line so thin
I'm half part evil, half part good
Weighing, tilting, pacing back n forth..
My steps defy me, my mind runs in circles
Is everything they tell you true
Or is the whole world just another lie
Its my burden to bear, my curse, my gift, my scar
And I'll carry it not through just this, but to beyond and a-far.

Guilty

is it a crime to remember the first kiss
is it a crime to clench the memory even though it slips away
is it a crime to yearn reliving those moments which now slowly fade away

is it wrong to laugh and cry at that very reminisce
is it wrong to miss that someone knowing time will never turn back
is it wrong to blame time and fate for what we couldve had but didn't

Comfort me with a lie, console me with the truth
that it was a dream i was dreaming,
it is a dream ill keep dreaming......

Hunter Turned Pirate

Hunter I was
Pirate I became
Its the game nature plays
Circumstances, situations,
Pressures, decisions
All closing on me
Looking for treasures on land
Now looking deep within waters too
Killing those in my way
Torturing them for pleasure
What has this world made me
What have I become
I've lost my identity
Hunter I was
Pirate I became

The Never Ending Day

Time wasted, time willing away,
Even though its said I'm at work
Theres nothing for me to do
But sit on a chair and read,
Read till the books over...
Still, time hasn't passed

Waiting for this never ending day

To slowly set away...

To Where I Belong

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Love is a feeling, to each his own,
A feeling of being, a feeling of belonging,
A happy thought putting a smile on your face,
An urge to be with , feel the warmth of his breath in my ears,
The touch of his lips on my back

Sending shivers, making me quiver,
Hold me tight, don't let me go...

I love this feeling of just being in your arms

Feeling safe in your bind, feel content with life,

And I know that I made the right choice when I said

'This is where I wanna be, this is where I belong...'

Living for the moment
Enjoying whats around me
Next step doomsville

Thats why I'm living for the moment

Infinity

Infinite adventures
Infinite thoughts,
Its a continuous process
Depicting life and death and life again,
Mistakes made and lessons learnt
Everyday a new story,
Revolving around myself
An infinity of pain...

Infinite stories and time boundless,
Once and for all I feel the pain
And bear the sign to remind me of my mistakes,
To learn from them and play safe
Showing me the way, the path I must choose
To give me strength in my tough time
To lift my spirits on my gray days...

Remember Me This Way

Remember me when I'm gone,

Not for all that I've wronged,
But for the good times we shared.

Keep me alive in your mind
Along with our conversations,
The adventures and the mishaps,
The long drives and dancing all night.

Keep me with you, let me bring a smile on your face,
My memories your support,
Your strength on a gray day.
Keep me alive and carry me with you always.

Tired & frustrated of this grind

Waiting for the working of my mind,

Struggling to get out of the loop

Take some time off, drink some soup,

Laze around, while away time

Let me get what I deserve & whats mine.

Dream

Dare to dream & dream big,
For one day that dream will come true.
If you only believe in yourself
& have faith in what you believe...

Be passionate about your dream and don't let anyone tell you different,

Everyone is special in their own way & so are you,
You are special and a favorite,
Loved by everyone, supported by everyone.
You have nothing to be scared of, nothing to fear,
Just dream and everything else will come to you.

I Seek You

I dont look for money
I dont look at cars,
I dont see your gizmos
Or your fancy stars...

I seek love, I seek compassion,
I yearn for your warmth
And your breath on my scars,
Soothing my pain
Calming me down,
Its for you that I long

& its you that I want...

CONQUERED

With all its beauty
And ruins in view
Standing tall
With scars of bravery
As the pillars fall

And crumble in war
Bleeding for humanity,
A lonely soul,
Holding on
His faith shaken,
Once a king...now a scavenger

Wandering on

In search of life,
A sign of new beginnings

His only hope,
All that he's ever held on to

Slipping away
A lost love,
A lost life,
What seem now, like another lifetime

As he sits in the shadows of what was once his home

His kingdom beloved,
And he shuts his eyes, lays his sword down,

At the end he can see,
A shining light.
The last thing he ever will

like a metaphor befitting
That like him shone bright
And then got lost in the dark....

NEW WORLDS

Zoned out in thoughts
Of another world
Where freedom prevails
Peace and beauty remain,

The human race comes together
Not for war but for love
But at the end of the day I have to return..
Come to ground zero,
Witness betrayal, the hate, the lies
This is what makes me a rebel
Makes me want to run away
Question existence at all...

The hope and faith
That maybe one day we'll come to this
Alas, the nerves of steel break out
That one push over the edge
Where art thou oh leader of leaders
To show us the way,
The road to escape, the tunnel to new life
March us to our destiny

Take us there
A real new world
Where freedom prevails,
And peace and Beauty remain...

Inner Conscience

When you're at a loss for words,
When an awkward silence sits in
Your eyes wander, in search of an answer
And helter skelter, your thoughts start running,
The mind will tell you only what you need to hear.

But what happens when you want to say,
something your mind holds you against
To say it out loud will be admitting,
admitting that you give in to your fears,
admitting that you're weak,
not strong enough to control.

But what do you do when the feelings so strong,
that it overwhelms & takes over
Your drenched in that one thought,
one moment, one single emotion.

What do you do when you have no way out
No matter where you run,
which direction you look,
everywhere you turn.

What do you do when you know
The end is near,
That this is it, and its now or never

Would you admit and agree
Let it take over you
Say it then out loud...and scream your last breath out....

RAINS

"I Love To Walk In The Rain Because Nobody Can See Me Crying."
-CHARLIE CHAPLIN.

MY HAPPY SONG

Give music to my grief
make it into a song

A melody that takes in
the sorrows as it plays along
swallows the feelings
drinks up the anguish
soothes the burns
and eases the pain

An anthem for the world to hear
to connect with and share the unspoken lament
a light of hope
a ray of joy

Let me sing a song
let me sing what is- my happy song!!

Where Did I Go Wrong??!!

changing people's lives, where has mine gone?
helping others go through their problems with ease
my mind has lost its peace
how did i miss the finer points,and the lines inbetween
mistaking the masked as my true
bearing my soul out for those precious few
who deep till inside me knew

I was taken for granted i didnt know
untill my heart was nabbed
nowhere to be found I have a hollow space
filling it with grief from the world, taken as my own
a burden consuming me slowly till one day i know where to go.

why cant we lead simple lives
like we admire others having

wonder how they manage
to be so happy with the little joys of life
how did our's get so complicated
just when we thought everything was right

meaningless conversations going astray
under others conspiring eyes falling pray
once again the blame game becomes a party hit
blammers take home the jackpot
while the blammed loose their bets

our simple childhood turned to teenage wild
conditions us to believe 'the grass is ALWAYS greener on the other side'

if ur still reading this... best of luk for ur exams..study hard!!

MIASMIC EMOTIONS

Where did i go wrong
Where did i loose myself
A part of me has died
Never again to see daylight
Somewhere deep inside me
The carcass lies frozen
The warmth of love its only cure
A breath of hope as its saviour
Look through me
Find me in my maze
For im lost in my own darkness
Never to be found again.

its a wonderful day

The world around me turns,
This morning looking beautiful.
The birds chirping,
The winds blowing,
The weather pleasant and perfect.
I let this sight sink in,
Let the colors fill up my eyes.
My spirits are lifted, they begin to soar
Its a beautiful morning
And im looking forward to a great day.

I Love Her

Unconditional love is a funny thing.
Even others might hate her for what she is,
I still love her.
Even though others hate her for what shes done to me,
I still love her.
They say friends are the family we choose,
She is a part of my family,
And I dont see it without her.
I love her inspite of all her flaws.
Nobody's perfect, nor me or you.
And thats why i love her.

'Love Each Other or Perish' -Mitch Albom

What makes me sad,
Is when people don't value what they have.
Not in terms of the materialistic world,
But value the love they have.
The people surrounding them who care,
Who love and cherish every minute spent with you.
These are the important things in life,
They are the ones that should matter the most.
Devote your time to the ones you love and those who love you.
Remember "LOVE EACH OTHER OR PERISH!!"

What makes me sad

Is when people don't value what they have.

Not in terms of the materialistic world.

But value the love they have

the people surrounding them who care

Who love and cherish everyminute spent with you.

these are the important things in life

BY INVITATION ONLY

Welcome to my world,
my world of thoughts,
my world of dreams,
of songs and dance,
of love and peace,
of friendship and loyalty,
of teachings and learnings.
A world where we
talk about life,
talk about death,
anger and forgiveness,
faith and regret.
A world where we share our feelings and
what we've been through in life
and learnt from it.
Welcome to my world,
Welcome to my heaven!!

Run Run Run

Running away from this world ,
Following my heart to wherever it takes me.
This place is not me ,
This ain't where i belong.
My life lies outside
Outside these limitless bounds.
Soar into a parallel universe,
Where I feel at home
Comfortable and safe.
Where I can be true to my heart,
Honest with myself.
Pure and peaceful,
Serene and just..........

ive hurt u so many times i know
i wanna stop now... wanna try to rectify my mistakes
i hope i dont loose u in my mess
thts not even the last thing id want to do
playing with your heart hurts me
what makes me more sad is your ignorance to this
i love you and always will
but this is the right time for you to leave
the cave's falling in, n u dont want to get crumbled under it.

Tearing Apart The Screen Of Life

Feel like I wanna scream,
Feel like I wanna cry,
Feel like I wanna breakthrough,
From my empty sky.
Out into my world
Where theres trust n love
N faith n joy
N peace beyond words explanation.
A world so full of emotions,
Like a wave surpassing through.

The calling

It's a scary lil place,
This lonely lane,
Confusing, twisting and turning.
Tic toc, I can hear my footsteps go
Searching for my destination.
I hear voices, I see light.
Here's my calling,
Here's my life.

Silence...

Silence, in this corridor
Silence is what I hear
Sounds so soft, so sweet.
The music of silence falls on my ears
And a small smile appears on my lips
Humming along, tapping my feet
Into a different world of my own
Alas, the trance is broken
By the calling out of my name
I'll have to go now
Leaving my world behind
Reality tuts, its wheels in motion & I have to hop on....

Everybody seeks happiness! Not me, though! That's the difference between me and the rest of the world. Happiness isn't good enough for me! I demand euphoria!

--from the all time favourite Calvin n Hobbes.

End of another relationship...

Ill miss knowing that your mine..
Ill miss your kisses and the look in ur deep watery eyes..
Ill miss those warm hugs and the night long walks.
Most of all Ill miss you and knowing that even though your there..
Ur still not really there!!!

Wonder

I wonder as I pass your window
Have you moved on?
For I hope against hope you haven't.
I wish I was the one you'd always love
And you be the one I'd always love;
But then again life moves on
And so have you and I.
Loving someone more than I loved you
I dont see that happening;
Loving someone more than u loved me
Its just the thought that scares me.
I pray for your happiness,
I pray for your success,
I pray that u find the one you can love.
Love her, but not more than you loved me!!

Lost Wondering, Lost Wandering

Far away in the distance,
Eveytime i look in your direction,
I wonder ...
Are u as miserable as i am;
Or are you just as happy as me?!

Heaven Vs Hell

The world around me moves along
Unaware of their surroundings.
Blinded.
Blinded by their own will,
Blinded by beating round the mill.
The blindfold so dark, one cannot see
See beyond themselves, see beyond the sea.
Beyond the sea lies another world .
A world of peace, a world without rust
A world made of joy, a world full of love,
Come with me, as i take you on a journey,
A journey of loyalty and trust.
Befriend me and ill help your blindfold off.
Beyond the sea,
Towards the empyrean!!!

Heart???

Hearts here, hearts there
Hearts crushed everywhere
Some cold, some are warm,
Some soft, some stern,
Heartaches, heartbreaks,
Hearts stomped on
And sqeezed till theres nothing left
I'll help you pick up ur peices
You help me gather mine
A new friendship begins
On a path to shatter us again.

My Queen

Oh my love, my life,
The battlefield is my home
Your arms my temple.
Home is where i get salvation
My thirst for blood quenched,
In your bossom serenity i perceive.
Honour those who fight with me
Glory we receive as our enemies perish.
A lot of lives i have burdened on me
A lot of blood i have drained.
Ease me of my guilt, of my sorrow and pain
Oh my Goddess, i come to you
Your arms my temple
Let me pray
Let me pray!!!

HOPE -N- FAITH

I see happiness
I see joy
They seem so unreal
They seem so far away
The distance is long
One step at a time
Someday I'll be there
I'll have happiness
I'll feel the joy.


no headin 4 this one ...any suggestions??

Shadows

Shadows in my mind
Sometimes plenty sometimes nil
Sometimes fat sometimes thin
Shadows of evil
Shadows of good
Shadows fighting to take over my head
Drown them down
Blank them out
I'm loosing my mind
Can't get them gone...

walkin thru

Life with its twists n turns
Turning left, turning right,
U turns not allowed
The road moves only foward
The choice is yours
Run along, walk or jog
The pace of life n the world moves on.....

Strong

Strong, strong, strong,
Strong by emotion, strong by thought,
Strong by wonder, strong as a rock,
Strong I show and strong i got!!

Not A Single Day

Not a single day, without me thinking about you.
Not a single day, without me missing you.
Not a single day, without me looking at your window.
Not a single day, without me wondering where you went.
Not a single day, without me loving you.
Not a single day, without me caring.
Not a single day, without me remembering the times we spent together.
Not a single day, without me regreting what went wrong between us.
Not a single day, without me thinking about you.
Not a single day, without me missing you.
Not a single day, Not a single day.

Thats what friends are for!!

Who I am, no one really knows,
Not even me, nor my heart,
Looking for my identity,
Searchin my soul.
Lost I am in my own new world.
A rockstar I am, don't need you around
when I breakdown, won't call out to you,
but I'll still hope you'll come & get me through.

Different

Different I am,
Different i show,
Different is my world,
Different are my thoughts,
Different are my soul and heart,
Looks the same to u....
Is different to me!!

Hidden World

Hiding from my world
Hiding from my friends
Hiding from myself.
Look for me,
search for me,
find me.
Know me for who I am, for who I really am.
Look deep down inside
Maybe, just maybe then you'll see me,
n know me for who I am, for who I really am.

heres a thought

there was a boy n there was a girl...as in every normal story...
they met...became friends... both out in the world wearin a mask..pretending to b someone they arent.. suprisingly they understood each other
understood the pain n effort of keepin the mask on... as they got to know each other better...the mask started to melt out..slowly the true person showed!!
as time passed... slowly they fell in love!!
but like in any other story this one didnt have a happy ending... knowing eachother too well lead to small arguments..which inturn lead to bigger fights!!
hurting themselves and the other in turn... they gave the other distance and time...
withdrawn from the one they loved ..leading life the same way like before.

life taught them that wearing the lie again will bring things bk to normal..life goes on!!

back in their shells...living again!!!!

PAINT

A painter...
expressing his thoughts,
expressing his feelings,
his opinions, his advice,
his pain, his joy,
his sorrow, his love.

With the colours of the rainbow,
in ink, oil and water,
in anger and in calm,
singing, whisteling, humming..

"BABY U CAN PAINT MY LOVE!!"

HAHAHHAAHAHA- I JUS HAD TO PUT THIS UP..DUNNO WHT WAS I THINKING!!!
BUT ITS FUNNY RITE?!

THOUGHTS

I wanna write, write a story,
a story about a girl,
somewhere she thought she belonged
she couldn't go,
where she didn't belong
is where she was.
Nagging, ragging, mocking & insult,
a few of the things she beared.
Cry, pain, insulted & unclean,
a few of the things she felt.
To be demotivated is something
she overcame through time.
She went on- did not stop.
She'll go on, for she believed,
that one day- This too shall pass!!!

Murder Of My Plight!!!

Want to kill you.
Gonna burn you alive.
Gonna pierce your heart
till it bleeds dry and dead.
Drop by drop.
Breath by breath
you will surrender to me.
Be my slave and i'll give you freedom.
Freedom from the pain.
Freedom from the torture.
Freedom from thought and bondage.
Freedom, Freedom !!
Freedom from LOVE !!

sleep

ever felt like sleepin thru things??...its an awesome thing
everytime i dont wanna face somethin or avoid somethin(whatever it is, a fight, a realisation, a bad mood, anythin) all i do is get myself to go to sleep!!
n after a good hour or two when i wake up, everythings normal again- angers gone , for a fight the other persons cooled down, realisations gone(only to come back later.)
the feelings funny, its like nuthin ever happened!! ur bk to ur normal life!!

u shud try sleepin thru things...it works!!

stories

everyone has stories to tell.. i have few myself....
so wht im gonna do frm now is jus start spillin them out...i used to always wonder wht to write here thts the only reason i got such few blogs.
no nore- im gonna make an effort to write more often!!

everyone has stories to tell.. some short some long
stories to tell, stories to hear.
full of joy full of hope
some wid sadness some wid hate
spite, frustration, excitement, faith,
love, saturation, elation n fate.